Friday, November 14, 2008

To Live and Be Let Down

Of course there are supposed to be disappointments as you go through life. I've heard that many of them happen during high-school... some have also described it as a time of enlightenment or realization. Basically, these realizations can be very frustrating and that is what I am going through right now. My old school Trinity was hard because the kids that I pretty much grew up with were falling right in front of me. 3 of my best friends in my bible study were caught drinking and were kicked out, as well as another one was caught stealing in school. That was in 8th grade. Now in 12th grade things have not seemed to change. People that I looked at for so long and saw them as a model for a christ like life... well not so much. It's not like I don't like them anymore they are all still close friends of mine it is just kind of a shock when someone you've known for awhile flips the lights on and then you can really see. It is an honest let down. You can't really do anything either you are just stuck there watching... as bad as it is to say sometimes I wish I felt the freedom that they had. I find myself envying them however I soon realize that I have an excellent life and I don't want to change anything about it. Such is life.