Not So Fast Anymore

I failed in my sugarfast...not to temptation however, but to health. I found myself sleepless at night with a raging headache and sweat dripping from me. At first I thought I was just de-toxing from sugar and continued but a call to Dr. Cliff Sheets, my friendly neighborhood nutritionist, quickly put that to an end. He told me that by completely cutting out sugar from my life had drained my glucose levels and my adrenaline glands were beginning to malfunction (I think). In short I ran down stairs and had an apple at 3 o'clock in the morning. I was 4 days into the fast so the sugar definately buzzed me as I suddenly found myself wanting to go running or lift weights. I am still however going with the 21 day fast from purchasing myself necessities with my own money. I know that it is something that you would give up for lint but I didn't think of it at the time. I also think that I have a sort of problem with saving for something only to blow all the money on a random day after making it halfway to the item I originally intended to save my money for. We all have that problem though. I am hoping that these three weeks will help settle my urge to spend cashmoney and that I pray for patience because I need it. I mean there is this video game that is calling for me....only I cannot buy it. Awesome.

When Words Mean Nothing

One of the most valuable things that we all hold in our lives is probably our words. No not our ability to speak, but how much strength and weight our words hold with others...if that makes sense. For example, someone falsely accuses me of stealing. I am asked if I did indeed steal and I say no and give my half of the story. If I am trustworthy then my words will hold weight with the person and they should believe me. I don't know if that example helped but please continue reading and hold on to this speck of hope that you will understand. ' (speck). At a very young age everyone picks up lying for some amount of time. Depending on the parents, they might jump on you right away or let it go for awhile finding it cute, but either way we learn to lie. Some begin to quickly learn it's consequences while others quickly learn that there are no consequences if you do not get caught. People that live a life lying eventually earn that reputation and people find them hard to trust at points. What are we if we cannot be trusted? Are we nothing? No we are a person whose words fall upon numbed ears. I say numbed because if you are used to someone lying to you then you eventually just ignore them and live your life. If your words hold no weight you are in a serious hole. People need to trust you, people need to hear you. If people can't then you can never have a deep relationship with a girlfriend, friend, even God. Your relationship may seem deep but if you can't tell the truth to your friend, then who can you? More than likely you are lying to yourself...especially about the intimate relationship thingy. We CANNOT go before God and wear a mask while we scream, "Here I am Lord, all of me." You CANNOT go to your friend and tell them that you are their for them as your condensates on the mouth of the mask that covers your face. If you do...you just might the reply, "who is there for me? certainly not my friend because I don't even know who you are." Maybe not those exact words but I hope you are getting the idea. Still holding onto the speck of hope I gave you? EEEEEEExcellent. To quickly get to my point I leave you with this. Our words our so powerful. They can raise spirits or tear down the strongest of men. They can encourage and rally and they can bring tears as well as cause harm. First, keep the weight of your words strong as you hold others trust in you....don't live behind that mask, and final, use their weight for good...you have them for a reason.

I'm Just That Fast

Today at church it was announced that we have 21 days until easter, that is what I understood at-least. My pastor requested that anyone who wanted to join him in fasting for the 3 week period. If people wanted they could do the actual fast where meat is not eaten and other sorts...that kind of fast. Then he said that for those who were not willing to do that, we could do another type of fasting where each week he announces something we must go without for the remainder of the 21 days. Today it was sugar, so I proceeded to make my life sugarless!!! It is not all bad actually. It is a good chance to avoid unhealthy foods with better reasons than just to get healthy. Now I feel that I am bringing honor to God every time I pass on a candy bar. To take it a step further however I decided to give up (this gets confusing) using my own money to but personal necessities. This could be shirts, shoes, movies, video games, etc... Unless I actually need it then I cannot purchase it. This I will do for 3 weeks and at the end I will give $100 as tithe on the next sunday. I realize that unnecessary purchases are a major factor in my life and I am hoping to teach myself to save my money rather than blow it all. I truly do feel that I am going to grow closer to God, now just pray for me that I do not slip up!